I've got something to say / I killed your baby today / And it doesn't matter much to me / As long as it's dead

I am having a lot of stress lately. All of it is related to finances. I mean, there's some other things that are stressing me out, but the root of all of my problems is money. Here's the deal: I moved in with my parents to save money. I have a lot of credit card debt that I am chipping away at, and I am trying to save my money I would be spending on rent in savings. Great idea, but things keep coming up that are sucking me fucking dry. I'm making less money at work, and I am not getting any contract work - that usually accounts for about a third of my annual income. Now, the fucking air conditioner in my car isn't working, and my tooth has an abcess. I'm not so worried about the car. I've never had a nice car - I've always had shit. Now, it is just a little bit shittier. Sure, it is a little embarassing to have to pat myself down with coffee filters to absorb all the flop sweat I've built up from riding around in the baking Florida sun, but in this land of no public transportation, I am just glad to have a car. The tooth thing is pissing me off, though. Just a year ago, I had a root canal and a cap put on the tooth. Ever since then, there's been an abcess on my gums. I had new x-rays done and, apparently, they can't see much of an infection. The doctor's exact words were, "Welp, it might be this grey line here. Yeah, that's maybe it." He leaves before even telling me my options and I am directed to an office lady who tells me I have two choices: 1) Pay forty dollars and have them take the tooth out completely. This will basically be me flushing that $3,000.00 cap I just fucking bought down the toilet. Also, I'll have a gap like a fucking hillbilly (even though it is the second to last tooth and would be hard to see) and I would put my other straight teeth in jeopardy of becoming crooked. Frankly, I am fucked-up enough looking. I don't need that shit. 2) Pay fourteen hundred dollars for them to re-treat the root canal. They might find something, they might not. They might fix the problem, they might not. They might also destroy the cap again, and then I would need another one. Fucking A. Also, can I just point out that dental work is a fucking screw job? Those prices are with insurance. Fuck me gently with a chain saw. Jesus. So, basically, I need more money. A lot more money. I would consider a second job, but I work all the time as it is, so I don't know if that is realistic. If anyone out there has any ideas, though, I'd love to hear them.